My Inner World

When Caithlyn was about 9 months old, she went through an about 3 week long phase of only wanting me. . No one else would do, just Mamma.
Well, that's well and truly over.....
She is SO much Daddy's girl that she will panic if I try and put her to bed when her Daddy is home. She will stretch out her arms in an attempt to "ward me off". The rejection is blatant and sincere.

I work three days a week, the other two I spend at home with her. We have our little routine going. We do the domestic thing, we pop to the shops, we go the playground if the weather allows. We have cuddles and "hugsies" all the time. She tells me she loves me, she will sneak up from behind me to throw her arms around my neck and squeeze me really tight.

But then Daddy comes home and I am dropped like a bad habit. "Bye Bye Mamma, See ya!"

It's like being doused with a bucket if ice-cold water. Like my little girl has two personalities or something.

I know that it's normal and that it happens in lots of families. I know this because everybody keeps telling me...

But the fact that it's "normal" doesn't make it one little bit less painful though. And for people telling me that it's just a phase, I say 2 Flipping years is a heck of a long time for a "phase".

I really value the times that it's just her and I and we have a great time. And that's what I am going to keep in mind. that we DO have the great days too. It's these few hours in the evening that get to me.

And they do, they really, really get to me.......